I’ve always really loved new beginnings. There’s something so exciting about turning the page and having a blank slate! In the last ten years I’ve jumped around from place to place, trying different things and living in different environments, and I can honestly say that there is an addicting energy that can only be found in fresh starts. That doesn’t mean it’s easy though – in fact, it’s quite the opposite.
Today I’m starting a new job. I haven’t worked since August, when my health was so poor that my body could barely function out of the comfort of my bed. Since then I’ve had surgery for endometriosis, recovered from said surgery, gotten my driver’s license, moved to Connecticut, found a job, and accomplished a million other small things. I’m exhausted just thinking about it but the hard work is not behind me! Now that I’m in a new job, in a field that I don’t have a lot of direct experience in, I have to accept that I am doing something new and I probably won’t feel confident in what I’m doing for a little while. In a weird way I’m looking forward to this. I’m looking forward to the humbling feeling that comes with new starts.
Letting things humble you is the ultimate way to go with the flow. I’m not going to fight like hell to prove that I know what I’m doing and I’m not going to walk into work and assume that everything is going to go smoothly. Am I going to work my ass off and do the very best work that I can do? Of course I am. But I know that there are plenty of things that will come up that will show my inexperience and I will use these opportunities to reflect on all the hard work that has gotten me to where I am now and I will show myself some compassion.
I’m looking at this picture that was taken on my first day of pre-school and all I can see is the joy on my face and the excitement I had to go off to school with my little pink backpack and learn new things. So instead of focusing on all the messy, nerve-wracking, intimidating aspects of starting a new job I am going to keep my eyes on all that I have to learn.That sounds pretty damn exciting to me.